You are not alone Nick. I feel the same way most of the time, and I understand how sucky that feeling is. I’m glad that you opened up about this, so much respect for your bravery and open-ness.
Just don’t forget that you are precious, kind, cool, and you deserve to be always happy. We, the forums admire you because you’re such a great person. Don’t forget to stay positive and talk to us whenever you needed to.