[god damnit this turned out to be kinda long]
I’ve decided to take some time away from making videos.
I joined the Beta almost a year ago, in September, while I was trying to get my YouTube channel off the ground. At the time I was also pursuing acting and going out for auditions. In January, I decided to let go of my agent and put all of my creative efforts into making videos on Byte. I felt that trying to do both acting (auditions, classes, etc.) and videos at the same time left me feeling depleted and like I was only giving 50% to both.
Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve wanted to be an actor. The reason I chose to go hard on Byte instead of acting in January was twofold. First, I felt that creating my own work online would be a more feasible route into the acting world, kinda like Andy Samberg or Donald Glover. I could get myself out there, build a following, and make connections, rather than just waiting around for auditions. The second was that perhaps I would find along the way that I liked being a content creator, and that I could perhaps one day make a career out of creating sketch comedy, rather than solely acting.
For now at least, I don’t feel that either of these reasons for pursuing Byte have panned out the way I had hoped. I don’t think creating videos on Byte and other platforms at this rate will actually lead to success in the acting world. And as far as striving to be a content creator as a career, I don’t even see myself wanting to have millions of followers. I feel like I could slowly get to that point and end up feeling more-or-less the way I feel now, which is not particularly passionate or challenged by the goal of creating a lot of disparate sketches every week.
And just to be clear, I don’t mean ‘challenged’ in the sense that things have not been difficult. They have been. Like many others, I have experienced hardcore byters block, struggled with Byte’s identity crisis, its changes in format, and overall just coming up with new ideas that I think are genuinely funny and I want to share. I’ve filmed many bytes that I just don’t end up sharing because I think they’re stupid haha. What I mean by not feeling challenged is that I don’t feel as though I am growing as an artist or comedian from following the same routine every day of churning out new ideas.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I want to spend my time and where I want to be, and if I want to be an actor, that’s where I should be putting the bulk of my time. I may resume work on a feature film I had been writing as well… Things are a little up in the air now. I just know that I need a break from Byte. This isn’t goodbye forever, but I just wanted to give some context as to why you’ll be seeing less of me now.
I ALSO want to stress how much this community means to me. I have never felt this much encouragement and love from another app before. I have made so many wonderful friends and connections here that I will carry with me the rest of my life. The team as well, I am especially grateful for. I’ve never been paid to make content before, and it beats the hell out of waiting tables. Thank you thank you thank you for all you have done for me.
I will be around!